Rest in peace, Nek

On the 5th of January 2019, my grandmother passed away in her sleep.
She has been ill for quite sometime.
But still, i could not believe that she's really gone.
I always thought that she will always be there with her nags and asking bout the kids.
After she passed, for the first few days, whenever i thinking bout her, I cried. Even now, I feel extremely sad when I thought of her.
PhD is hard but losing someone is harder.
She couldn't see me getting my PhD (which i don't when).

But my sister who is the closest to her, affected by her passed much more . When she's sad, it made me sad. I'll pray that Allah gave her comfort .

And I keep telling myself to be strong and focus on my PhD, so I can make her proud.